THE PAST

2008-07-06T20:13:00.000-07:00

HEY PEOPLE.
real sorry i havent been posting. lazy. hehheh. i think i wont post for very long
(maybe unil after o levels) after this post. anyway this blog is kinda dead and i dont think anyone really reads it anymore so i was thinking to change my blog (like completely) after o levels or smth. :]
its youth day today and i dont have anywhere to go to. : ( lol. guess i'll just sit at home and pretend to do my homework. : P
anyway, my family went out to celebrate my birthday yesterday. :] went to vivo and ate dinner at carnivore. nearly burst. then went to newurbanmale and my dad bought me a..... PAIR OF HEELS. can you BELIEVE it? me wearing heels? hahaha. so after that we still had loads of time (our movie was @ 9pm) and we walked around, bought stuff to smuggle into the theatre then got into the theatre early. : ) we watched hancock. i LOVE it. so cool. :] ahhaah.
yeah so tt was mainly wad happened yesterday (other then church) : D

see yall soon!

rawbean

2008-03-01T01:29:00.000-08:00

i am so busy! school stinks because i have so many tests. But, as dawn would say, you must like totally physco yourself and say that you love studying then you will really love studying and she claims that she loves studying now so..... yea. But anyway, i must enjoy studying! because working is so much more difficult i reckon, and well.. i have to admit, there is a certain sadistic joy..

Oh well, at least i've finished watching the jap dramas and can concentrate on studying now.

[ps.joan wrote this]

2008-02-03T00:20:00.000-08:00

heyy.

veeeery loong never post alr. haha. i'll post specially for those fans of mine [yeah right] who are interested to know whatsup with me. :]
one great word to sum up the week is: STRESS. like seriously. the whole week is like school, do work, come home, do work, eat, do work, shower, do work and theres like tuition and piano lessons slotted in between. i even forgot to eat dinner once. wouldnt have realised it if my dad didnt ask me whether i ate yet when he came back home at like 10pm. HA.
i realised only january has passed. like JANUARY. insane. cant imagine whats gonna happen throughout the ELEVEN more MONTHS of school.

SIANN.

I WANT A HOLIDAY NOW!!!

haii. better start STUDYING for my TESTS on monday AND tuesday already [AAARRRGH].
cya [not] soon!

rawbean :[

2008-01-01T01:15:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR! i dun really see wad's so happy about it though.. its like, no one really is happy during the new year yes? esp for students. cos the new year just means the beginning of another even more stressful academic year, sprinkled with more homework here and there and wonderfully decorated with more tests and exams. great! -____-

haii. i guess it only good for making resolutions and for starting afresh and right again.

my new year's resolutions:
--> work harder for tests and exams
--> cut down on the slacking
--> do QT everyday [which reminds me, i havent been doing it. darn.]

tt's all 4 now.
cya.
rawbean :]

2007-12-25T03:45:00.000-08:00

hello!
realised i have manymany pictures of hearts i made out of random stuffs, ok so i have 5 , ha. anw, because im feeling random, im gonna post em!

yay!

what the following hearts are made of [accordingly]:
--> bar soap from molina ll guest house in cambodia
--> a mixture of tomato ketchup and mashed-up fries and cucumber
--> herbal essences spa indulgence smooth and straight for all hair types conditioner [0.o]
--> colgate toothpaste
--> salt from han's at tasty town

to you with love..

shows how much i love food...
un-conditioner love. get it? uncondition-al?
colgate toothpaste gives you love-ly teeth!love is sweet [ok fine i used salt, but it'll pass as sugar, no?]

--no more randomness from here on--

me: wishing everyone a God-blessed and lovely christmas! may this day be a reminder to all tt God loves us very much, so much so tt He sent His only Son to die for all of us! :]

love,

rawbean<3

2007-12-18T22:38:00.000-08:00

heyhey.

another post on BYMET. :]

i took really few pictures during the trip but i'll post a few anw.

cat at the silk farm
dog at BB learning centre
joanna and the temple
skull
many skulls
many many skulls
egg yok bun?
my phnom penh hotel room

angkor beer

the demolition of the innocent young tree..

rawbean :]

2007-12-17T22:31:00.000-08:00

heyy.

back from cambodia and mersing. it was a really cool experience in cambodia. teaching kids games and craft, getting to know the missionaries and their families working there [mainly koreans], riding on donkeycarts and tuktuks, eating fried crickets and lotus fruits, sleeping under a mosquito net, bathing with spiders, climbing temples [angkor wat!] and seeing firsthand a breathtaking view of millions of stars.

its just like what i said, BYMET is over all too soon. OVER. while we were still making preparations for the trip, it felt like BYMET was never going to come, now it feels like it has come and gone too fast, like it never happened. im still waiting to get on the plane and fly to cambodia. to relive my best memories of the place.

haiii...

THE TRIP THAT [it seems] NEVER HAPPENED:

top of the world
siem reap assemblykampong thom assembly
under the stars in baray
three buggers behind..
wishing upon a shooting star
teaching craft to the rhema house kids
outside the museum; team BYMET missing the dawn..
trapped
silhouettes against the night sky

LPC

lunch @ bro kim han sik's house

home sweet home

teamBYMET: ahma, brandy, legless, nameless x 3, pissful, sadistic, silkworm, timothylame, tito.

lear hi.

rawbean :]

2007-11-29T05:00:00.001-08:00

off to cambodia!

rawbean

2007-11-26T23:59:00.000-08:00

haii.. im super bored.

i kinda got cut on sunday. during sunday school. dunno how it happened. just felt like near my ankle there wet wet one [lol] and a bit painful then look.

i, being always so bo liao, took pictures of it. LOL. wanna see?

[im mentally sound thanks]

cut
cut
cutcut

oh. and i got like thirteen mozzie bites. i dint take pictures though. LOL. you're spared. stupid mosquito[es].

aaargh! someone talk to me b4 i die of boredom!

rawbean :]

2007-11-26T19:34:00.000-08:00

i cut all my nails!!
haii. will have to wait a million years for them to grow again.

so i was thinking about BYMET yesterday and felt a little sad. its like the group has gone closer since the first meeting and the trip is on its way. but everything will past so fast and b4 we know it the trip is over. the grp wont have to meet up anymore and we'll have to kinda 'split up'. haii. i cant believe i actually thought of backing out once... just hope that the trip will rock. and that we'll still meet up once in a while after the trip. to go SENTOSA! hhaha.

tt's all [little] folks!

rawbean :]

2007-11-24T23:48:00.000-08:00

sua'sday.

just to warn you, this post is extremely long.

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my handphone spoilt so im using a spare one now. the spare one's nicer. lols. using a spare phone means i do not know who's smsing me unless the person leaves his/her name in the sms. take the hint if you're gonna sms me for whatever reason. haha. thanks. :]

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i'll talk about what happened on friday.

all the BYMETers had to go to church at EIGHT FORTY-FIVE AM for a meeting. obviously, i was late. reached at 915 i think. or later. lols. was super stressed in the morning can. rush here rush there to prepare all the stuff for BYMET then in the end never use. -__- so my mom helped me call a cab. then got major traffic jam cause of an accident. haii. so late lor. i would have packed the night before but i used it and part of the morning all up to finish my testimony and paint the cards to give to the cambodians. slept at like THREE AM can. tried to wake myself up at 650 but i kept pressing the snooze button on my handphone and changing the alarm time so slept until like 730 before i forced myself outta bed.

BYMET:

--> packing of donated stuff
--> meeting all the way until one

two peeps didnt come.
joanna --> she had exams
hilary --> he slept through the whole meeting. best.

after the meeting, dawn, ming ann, jonathan, titus, lucas, brandon, ben chia, timothy, jethro and i went out for lunch at botak jones.

i drank alvocado milk for my lunch. lol. im NOT anorexic, NOT bullimic and am NOT on a diet. just wasnt hungry..

so jethro left right after he finished eating, brandon left cos he had hockey practice, ming ann left for i forgot wad and jonathan got persuaded to join us to sentosa.

went to the bus stop opposite botak jones and took bus fifty something to vivo there. then went up up up to the top level. bought tickets and took the sentosa express thingy to beach station in sentosa. met hilary then walked to palawan beach, much to the dismay of lucas. but it really was quite near the station. lols. walked past the bridge there to the ulu part of the beach.

the sun was so darn hot. the sand was so darn hot. then play touch rugby my the soles of my feet felt like kena cooked so ran to the water there. at first only my legs were wet. cos my mom dun allow me go past that. until the guys came. kena splashed until dripping wet so i just went into the water since i was like already completely drenched. the place was like a war zone la. me and dawn against hilary and ben chia. threw sand and splashed water at each other. ben strted the sand fight. kicked sand at me. but hilary was the worst la. threw sand down dawn's back. haha. then lucas and titus joined in the splashing. threw seaweed, the rugby ball and the volleyball at each other too. ohya, and tried to push each other into the water. i kena dunked into the water twice by hilary and ben chia. dawn kena once. by ben chia. one push fall in. HAHA. super funny. i couldnt push anyone into the water. -_____- the guys, except jonathan and timothy, were totally merciless. so ya, war it was. :]]

then, me, dawn, lucas and ben chia swam across the sea to the other side. to where the islands are. actually, only me and ben chia really swam. lucas used the volleyball as a float and kicked and dawn just floated on the rugbyball to the other side somehow. lols. waved to the other guys frm there and swam back again. i totally no stamina. liddat tired already. so went to drink water and played ball again while hilary and lucas had some intimate talk together on the sand. LOL.

after all the playing and the wars, i found a coconut i tried to crack it open by throwing it into the sand. then like duh cannot so went to sit in the sand with the rest while ben chia planted the coconut. -_____- i threw sand at jonathan's back and it kinda stuck there even after we left sentosa.

me; theres still sand stuck on your shirt. aw mann.
jonathan; nvm. it'll help me remember sentosa.
forgotwho; your memory so bad meh?
jonathan; where did we just go?
me; sentosa?!?
jonathan; oh ya.
me; HUH?!?!?
[jonathan starts laughing at me]

i seriously thought he forgot. -______- trust me to be so slow..

so after sentosa, me, lucas, hilary and titus went to eat dinner at telok blangah food court. the rest couldnt have dinner with us.

the end result.

three are titus's and two are hilary's. BELIEVE IT.

all of us didnt wanna go home so we just sat there and wasted time. and i had a curfew. ended up half an hour late.

whoa. this is more of a compo than a post. ahha. better stop here. :] cya arnd.

rawbean :]

2007-11-19T22:08:00.000-08:00

lotsa things been happening.

WARNING: this is gonna be an extremely boring and long post so i suggest that you dont start reading after the line or you'll be bored to death.

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thursday...

went to bedok mrt to meet up with elena, dawn and claudia. then made our way to the bus interchange where elena, clau and dawn shared a piece of ham. -__- so we got onto bus 196 and talked about [secret] and went to aunty yen ching's house. cedric ordered a hawaiian pizza for lunch.

after lunch, the four of us tried to get to east coast park but ended up having to sit at the steps of an overhead bridge while claudia called aunty yen ching to come save us. at east coast park, i mainly cycled, got a little wet at the beach and played frisbee, after we played a frustrating game of hide-and-seek with the others we were supposed to meet there [danna, jolene, lydia, reuben, izumi, ben goh, brandon, blahblahblah].

aunty yen ching picked the four of us frm east coast park and dorianna from the bus stop near her house. went back to aunty yen ching's house and washed up before going for a movie [the bee movie] at tampines mall. ate a ding tai fung first. ordered xiao long bao.

first basket ---> 6 xiao long bao
second basket ---> 5 xiao long bao
third basket---> 1 miserable xiao long bao. -_________-

in slow motion...
waiter pulls the cover off the tall stack of baskets
steam gushes out
the waiter picks up the topmost basket and lowers it onto the table
all of us look expectantly into the basket
see a little xiao long bao in the middle of a huge basket minding its own business

oh, and we ordered this weird tasting noodle and didnt really like it so we started washing em with our chinese tea. they tasted better that way. lol.

went for the movie.
1. sees a bee, claudia; so cute!
2. another bee, claudia; ahhh.. so cute.
[repeat steps one and two 5 times]

went to get a coffee each from starbucks to keep awake after the movie [it really helped].

at aunty yenching's house..
we played halo a million times. there was some pillow fight involved with cedric. started with him betraying me in halo. after we got bored with halo, some of us went to the balcony and star-gazed, i played with cedric's gameboy and claudia played some lame spongebob game. then we turned on the tv to see the totally spies being bimbotic, spongebob being irritating and the singers on mtv being emo [no offence to anyone. sorry about spongebob jolene]. anw, i got bored so cedric and i started playing sadistic games at addictinggames.com and laughed at all the parts of the game we found funny while the rest gave us weird glances and elena peeped at the pc screen a few times and eeeee-ed.

guess wad time we slept, thanks to the help of the caffeine? SIX AM IN THE MORNING! how cool is tt? :]]

i think i'd stop here for now. phew! wad a looong post. lols.

rawbean <3

2007-11-13T05:45:00.000-08:00

cut my hair
painted my nails black
wow

rawbean
weirdo...

2007-11-13T05:29:00.000-08:00

may the words i say
and the things i do
let my lifesong sing
bring a smile to You

~

follow that star

~

what i want:

> sunglasses that lets you see the future
> a hat that stores bad memories
> a doll that's emo for you

~

we are the reason
that He gave His life
we are the reason that He suffered and died

He is my reason to live

~

i will follow Him
follow Him wherever He may go
there isnt an ocean too deep
or a mountain so high it can keep
keep me away
away from His love
He is my destiny

~

rawbean
God will make a way when there seems to be no way...

2007-11-10T22:40:00.000-08:00

people are different in different places and circumstances. i wonder if i am like that..

~

went to get the jabs last friday with [in alphabetical order, lol.] ben chia, hilary, jethro, jon lim, lucas, timothy lim and titus chong.

at the clinic filling up forms
titus; we're filling them up so tt they know where to send our bodies when we die.

waiting outside rm 4 for consultation
lucas; later when the needle goes in then your flesh [makes some squishy exploding sound].
me; shuddup la.
titus; we're all going to heaven.
[i laugh]
jonathan; stop scaring pple la.
[pushes titus' head away]
[goes to sit beside hilary]
[laugh laugh laugh]

after consultation, waiting to get the jabs
titus; i see the light. we're all going to heaven. we'll all die.
me; go away la.
titus; i see the light.
[jethro and me laugh like mad]
titus; [[blahblahblah]]
[laugh somemore]
[titus goes to sit beside jonathan and talks somemore about going to heaven]
[jonathan tries to push titus away]

lucas goes in and comes out like 20 seconds later
[jethro looks into the room]
[lucas comes out]
lucas; finish alr.
[i start laughing]

i went in third
[titus looks in]
me; go away.
[nurse prepares stuff]
nurse; ok. take a deep breath.
[i breathe in]
[nurse jabs]
[nurse goes to the other arm]
me; how many did you do alr?
nurse; one.
me; oh.
nurse; take a deep breath.
[i breathe out]
[nurse jabs]
nurse; take a deep breath.
[i breathe out.. again(i dunno why)]
[nurse jabs]

when titus goes into the room
me; dun worry. you'll go to heaven if you die.
[some of us peep in]
nurse; those done alr can go and pay up.
lucas; i think she's pissed off.

when everyone(except timothy) got their jabs, we leave poor timothy behind to wait for his 'doom' and go and pay up

when its my turn to pay up
cashier/receptionist; $78.65
[i try to take out the notes properly but they end up in a pile of em on the counter]
[laugh...]
[i pour out my coins tryin to find the correct coins]
dunnowho; wahh.
[i pai seh]

after paid up we went to eat at KFC
ben; you not eating?
me; nope.
ben; anorexic.
me; no!

after a while
me; then you eating?
ben; nope.
me; anorexic.
[haha]

after eating
jethro; aye. got donut factory! wan buy donuts?
dunnowho; no.
[jethro looks dejected]

end up jethro and hilary go get donuts, titus waits at the mrt station for em, lucas goes home by bus and the rest of us take the train to our next destinations. me - home.

i reach home and kena headache.
ate a panadol and tried to sleep for 10 minutes b4 going to great world city for a movie with my family. STARDUST.

tt's about it for friday. hhaha.

rawbean
laughter is the best medicine...

2007-11-10T05:20:00.000-08:00

i call out to them,
they hear but dont care.
they go and enjoy themselves,
and leave me dying there.

rawbean
irritating...

2007-11-08T06:50:00.000-08:00

hey all. :]

havent been posting fer a looong time cos 1. im too lazy 2. i dont have anything interesting to blog about. i dun even have anything interesting to blog about now but i'll just do it for the sake of doing it. heh.

im totally not prepared for BYMET. 1. i havent even finished my testimony yet. 2. i havent gotten any good crafts for the camodian kids yet. 3. i have to prepare for a BS i have to conduct with joanna which i dun think i am cut out for. 4. i hardly rmb any khmer.

as for my results, at least i improved or maintained my grades. but im still one of the lowest in class. suckss.. really. being in the so called best class isnt so cool after all. especially when you cant even keep up with your classmates. HAIX.

weelll, at least lessons are over and 'boringness' is gone. but i still have a whole lota worries to face. soon. and tmr my dad's coming home from overseas. but i have to take like THREE jabs tmr for BYMET.

wow. im pretty negative today. i seem to be able to find a negative thing for every positive thing tt's either happened to me or is gonna happen to me. even if there no positive thing im still negative. how cool is tt?

rawbean

ps. my big toe hurts too.

2007-10-28T00:25:00.000-07:00

heyy.
i'm eating chocolate now. :] random. -______-

anyway, had a BYMET meeting yesterday.
danna, reuben and david withdrew. :[ so now they're about 12 youths gg for the trip.
uncle andrew's joining us though. :] yay! haha.

for the donation drive next week i have to bring fruit pulp, old clothes and 60plus marbles.
looks like i hafta drink loads of fruit juice on friday night..
i have like two hundred over marbles. lols. BELIEVE IT. i can show you if you dun. :]

vaccinations. AARGH. i hate jabs. my mom wants me to take all three somemore. walao. die la. pokepokepoke. THREE TIMES! ouch..

ok, this post is the boringest of the boringest.

me: you suck.
me: no you suck.
me: you.
me: you.
me: YOU.
me: YOU.
me: YOU!!!
me: YOU!!!

-__________________________________________-

one big DIAO just for me. lamelamelame.

haii. nth else to say. unless its dumb random stuff. heh.
byee. zai jian. adieu. sayonara. lear hi.
:]

rawbean
goinggoinggone...

2007-10-22T04:01:00.000-07:00

narrated yesterday for gospel. screwed up the 'our Lord is mighty to save' part. haii.

got back all my results too. failed chinese like *toot*.

english --> 61%
chinese [rips paper] --> ???
social studies [vomits] --> 58%
elect literature [bashes head against wall] --> 52%
emaths --> 80.75%
amaths --> 62.13%
chemistry --> 62%
biology --> 76.6%
physics --> 70%

guess wad. i generally improved my grades. THIS is IMPROVED. imagine my mid-year grades..

i know LOADS of people got LOADS higher than me so dun come to me and suan. thanks. hahh.

rawbean
thank you dear Lord :]
to go or not to go...

2007-10-18T07:56:00.000-07:00

stole this from nicola's blog. hehheh. :] the cutest.

never judge a book by its cover

2007-10-11T01:15:00.001-07:00

2007-10-09T07:06:00.000-07:00

FRIGHT OF MY LIFE!

rawbean

2007-10-09T05:20:00.001-07:00

my dad, my sisters and i had the lamest discussion about the movie 'james and the giant peach'.

james and the giant peach
james and peach
peach and the giant james.

-___________-

rawbean
ilovelaughing...

2007-10-09T00:04:00.001-07:00

it says 'HI.'

rawbean
randomness...

2007-10-08T03:47:00.000-07:00

rewind.

2007-10-08T01:06:00.000-07:00

}}}----<3<3----->
hunted love.

rawbean
love?

2007-10-07T23:37:00.000-07:00

come, now is the time to worship,
come, now is the time to give your heart.
come, just as you are to worship,
come, just as you are before your God.
COME.

one day every tongue will confess you are God,
one day every knee will bow.
still the greatest treasure remains for those,
who gladly choose You know.

come.

rawbean
come...

2007-10-07T23:02:00.000-07:00

i'm forgiven because You were forsaken,
i'm accepted, You were condemned.
i'm alive and well, Your Spirit lives within me,
because You died and rose again.

amazing love, how can it be?
that You my King would die for me?
amazing love, i know its true.
and its my joy to honour You, in all i do, i honour You.

God loves you.

rawbean
amazing love...

2007-10-07T05:42:00.000-07:00

words are powerful.
they can bring someone up to cloud nine.
they can tear someone down so bad it changes his/her life forever.
even simple things said can make a person feel hurt, happy, sad, overjoyed, depressed..
it can cause you trouble, cost you a friend but at the same time can save a life or gain a friend.
just give your words a scan check b4 blurting them out
cos you'll never know wad could happen with the wrong words said.
dun take the risk.

rawbean
wrong words said...

2007-10-07T00:45:00.000-07:00

food. something you should never turn to in times of stress.

the evil cheesy doritos
its not just a tennis ball...
its a piece of gum. believe it.
it says 'HERSHEY'S', wad else can it be?peanuts and otah? oh ya. from my nasi lemak.
DARS milk chocolates. i wonder where all of em went to..
not-so-sour gummy bears. great achievement: i ate the whole pack myself in just a few days..
a smiling lemon. you dun get ta see one tt often...

'dori' and 'robyn'. blood or ketchup?

'_______'
POPcorn.
squishy mushroom/pacifier foam sweets
jelly beans. my cousins.

be my cupcake?

rawbean

2007-10-06T23:35:00.000-07:00

~~everything's changed.~~ if only i could return to the past and relive the times when i thought nothing would change.

~~when i wake up tmr i want everything to be as they should....~~

rawbean
He is unchanging, yesterday, today and forevermore...

2007-10-05T08:36:00.000-07:00

life is like a box of chocolates. you'll never know wad you get next.

never expected this.

rawbean
my head hurts..

2007-10-04T02:52:00.000-07:00

~ignorance is bliss~

its too late to apologise
i'm inconsolable

~

the dumbest person award
given to
robyn tan hui ting
[[ask me why]]

EOY exam papers:
! english
! chinese
! amaths
! biology
! chemistry
! physics
! emaths
! literature

rawbean
ignorance is bliss

H-O-P-E

2007-10-03T06:15:00.000-07:00

its not an easy road we are traveling to heaven
but God will make a way when there seems to be no way.

doubts and fears come from down below
but in moments like these i sing a love song to Jesus.

rawbean
hopefulness...

2007-10-03T06:06:00.000-07:00

screwed tight, ~~never to be loosened again.~~

~~regretted~~ the past, ~~tired~~ of the present, ~~worried~~ for the future.

rawbean
God will make a way...

2007-10-01T07:18:00.000-07:00

what am i doing?
what's my next step?

~~hopelessness is knocking at the door and i'm tempted to let him in.~~

goal-oriented: determined; hardworking; refusing to accept lesser than the goal
~~something i can never be?~~

rawbean
~~aarrghhh...~~

2007-10-01T03:41:00.000-07:00

nice.

rawbean
loved you with a fire red...

2007-10-01T02:43:00.000-07:00

Hilary MS13 3JackBOON un. says:
well how am i supposed to know when you didnt even tell me?
Hilary MS13 3JackBOON un. says:
so its kinda hard to expect me to know.
Hilary MS13 3JackBOON un. says:
how am i to answer you if i dont know?

i dont know anything. i'm confused. irritated. everything's falling apart.

Hilary MS13 3JackBOON un. says:
i screwed it up
Hilary MS13 3JackBOON un. says:
totally
Hilary MS13 3JackBOON un. says:
i made a fool out of myself.
Hilary MS13 3JackBOON un. says:
TOTALLY.

regrets and mistakes of the past. cant be changed. never.

Hilary MS13 3JackBOON un. says:
when i talk to you then im emo

its contagious. BEWARE.

rawbean

2007-10-01T01:39:00.000-07:00

~~if only you knew, my problem is you.~~

rawbean
its never too late to apologise...

2007-09-30T10:07:00.000-07:00

teddy bear on a chain says:
loving hate
hints of heartfelt heaven ｡◕¤*☠♥‿✿*~wonderful wells of wishes~*✿‿♥☠*¤◕｡ says:
hating love
teddy bear on a chain says:
lovely hatred
hints of heartfelt heaven ｡◕¤*☠♥‿✿*~wonderful wells of wishes~*✿‿♥☠*¤◕｡ says:
hated love

teddy bear on a chain says:
loved hatred
hints of heartfelt heaven ｡◕¤*☠♥‿✿*~wonderful wells of wishes~*✿‿♥☠*¤◕｡ says:
lotred
hints of heartfelt heaven ｡◕¤*☠♥‿✿*~wonderful wells of wishes~*✿‿♥☠*¤◕｡ says:
haved

the emoic discussions of love and hate.

rawbean

2007-09-30T09:18:00.000-07:00

hints of heartfelt heaven ｡◕¤☠♥‿✿~wonderful wells of wishes~✿‿♥☠¤◕｡ says:
i
hints of heartfelt heaven ｡◕¤*☠♥‿✿*~wonderful wells of wishes~*✿‿♥☠*¤◕｡ says:
say
hints of heartfelt heaven ｡◕¤*☠♥‿✿*~wonderful wells of wishes~*✿‿♥☠*¤◕｡ says:
EAT ME!!

i will. soon enough.

rawbean

2007-09-30T05:09:00.000-07:00

what's happening? this sucks. there're too many problems in this world. too many worries roaming around in my head. too many mistakes,too many regrets. if someone can just invent a time machine. wont tt be great? i'll just go back in time and re-do everything from the start...

GOD PLEASE HELP ME!!!

suck as a daughter
suck as a sister

~~suck as a friend~~

suck as a human
its just me. i suck.

self esteem: way down below zero..

rawbean
~~true love at first sight only happens in fairy tales...~~

joan and me :]

2007-09-15T04:11:00.000-07:00

[edit: this is joan!] HELLO! i am NOT in china!!! i successfully tricked aaron and robyn(okay not so successfully but still!) into thinking i'm in china! but it was unintentional so in case you guys think i'm in china, i'm not! it's just that *** has a lot of china dudes around and i FEEL i'm in china because of that, and that i'm so far away from home =( i miss everyone! that i dont see in school. and for some strange reason, i really want to eat fish and co! hmph.

ROBYN TRIPS. BEWARE.

[robyn here.] i didnt get tricked kay. heh. :] i tripped joan like 5 times today successfully.hahah. tripping is my forte. even joan says so. :D oh no. i needa go now. hahaha. cya.

rawbean and joan :]
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BYMET yesterday...

2007-08-26T03:04:00.000-07:00

sua s'day! :] [hello in khmer]

yest from 6-930pm, we had a bymet [bethesda youth mission exposure trip] meeting. have one new member in our group - titus chong. :]

youths going to cambodia [we rock!] :
-> dawn
--> danna
---> me! :]
---->brandon
-----> jonathan lim
------> lucas
-------> benjamin chia
--------> timothy
---------> hilary
----------> jethro
-----------> reuben
------------> david
-------------> titus chong

so first, we confirmed our roles. i got the very very (:]) important roles of crafts and journalist. sharing the roles with danna. :P

then we revised the song 'seek ye first' in khmer. we pro. memorised the whole song k. notbadnotbad. :]

after that, we learnt a new [super 'easy'] song in khmer. very wonderful pronounciations that everyone could catch at first go... harhar. needa practice a lot.. :P

we had this cambodian culture lesson [woohoo! school!]. i learnt that the cambodian king was a ballet dancer and is very educated, cambodians are very artistic, the king is just a figurehead and the PM is the one with the real POWER. :] i think tt was all that was taught? hee..
during the lesson jethro and david started smelling lucas' highlighter. LOL. and jethro had this really evil suggestion on wad to do with it to somebody... tsktsk. :] ask me to do somemore. harhar. you wish. :P

then we had some photo highlights on the previous batch of youths who went for the trip last year. they climbed [seriously, climbed] up a temple with super steep and narrow steps. we're gonna do it too. if an old man can do it [haha] so can we! hope no one falls! ;]

we had another lesson, this time a language one. lucas not bad ar? lols. memorized a few phrases and words. :] quite fun actually. haha. must talk in khmer more often.

so after learning a bit of khmer, we had prayers and ended the meeting. overall, IT ROCKED! haha. i cant wait for the next one! :] 1 sept. come quickly! :D

lear hi! [byebye in khmer]

rawbean
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10 weird or little known facts about me...

2007-08-22T04:02:00.000-07:00

its all razmiah's fault i'm wasting my time posting. :] i'll stick her head in the toilet bowl tmr.

10 weird or little known facts about me:

1. the first time i cheated in a test was when i didnt know i was doing it until the teacher whacked me.
2. i'm a carnivore.
3. i like to hear ghost stories and stuff about horror movies but wont be able to sleep at night.
4. after the time i watched part of headhunter, i became paranoid about the water having acid in it everytime i bathed for a few weeks.
5. i feel scared even just going up on stage to receive a prize.
6. i like to drown my rice in soup or sauce before eating it.
7. people think i'm the good type until they see my true colours. :]
8. i'm accident-prone but i've never fractured any bones before.
9. i use my left hand to write and draw but do everything else with my right.
10. i dun like to throw stuff away.

each player of zis game start off with 10 weird or little known facts about him/herself. people who get tagged must write 10 of their weird or little known facts of themselves in their blogs as well as state this rule clearly. at the end players must tag SIX people and list their names. NO TAGGING BACK.

1) audrey
2) david
3) lucas
4) magdalene

rawbean :]
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doritos!

2007-08-21T02:00:00.000-07:00

hello!

eating doritos now. want some? [sticks chips into pc screen] crap. they're all over my keys now.

anyway, i hope theres gonna be study this friday so i can teach all of my study mates how to stick their heads in toilet bowls without getting stuck. theres a skill to it. jolene taught me. :] and then maybe we'll study. hhahaha. shiok.

today, i got a prize for writing the worst essay in school. $3oo worth of kinokuniya vouchers ok! not bad rite? hahha. jus joking. i only got $3o. i'm gonna be a good gurl and give 20 bucks worth of vouchers to my mom for her to buy stuff that we need and gonna use the rest to buy stuff tt i dun need. :] applause pls. thank you thank you. :P

i have tuition tmr! jane's mom's my new chinese teacher. :] cool eh? its gonna start at 9pm and ends at 1030pm, so all fans pls message me before 9pm or after 1030pm tmr. :] jus in case you miss me during the short period of time (which you probably will), i left a photo...

dun i just have such good fashion sense? :]

cya 'round!
rawbean :]
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joan, jolene and me! haha.

2007-08-19T01:38:00.000-07:00

hello! this is joan.. guess where i am? anw, today's sunday and after church we went to Great World City and we had kenny rogers for lunch! Anyway, i'm here because robyn didnt do our picnic enough justice! so i'm going to blog about the picnic haha. Though there werent fireworks because marina was boarded up, we still had lots of fun at botanics! Robyn and i fought on the grass and she made grass angels -.- and we played virus! and we cartwheeled! and teddybeared and played ball =D and london bridge haha. anw it was awesome and liberating cause we had tonnes of space to ourselves. I DONT FEEL LIKE STUDYING!! we all have lots of work to do! but two of them are fighting and i'm blogging. and i think someone just locked someone out cause i heard banging and knocking. oh great now they're screaming. oh and guess what! robyn is chasing jolene with the spear thing that we got during youth camp. hilarious! (joan went to stick her head in the toiletbowl and so jolene's here) okay now she's chasing my sister for the red soft toy HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. me and my sister are currently owning boo robyn boo. oh no they're having a cat fight now! OH YAY my sister owned the spear. oh by the way i locked robyn in and then when i accidentally left a bit of gap in the door robyn poked the spear in my face so i ran away and she started chasing me with the spear. yeah just so you know :D okay now robyn owns :( kay me and my sister have to study already. robyn la, no work then come and ka chiao. byebye! (now jolene went to stick HER head in the toilet bowl so robyn here) hhahhaha. now jolene owns the red alien soft toy. HEY! stop eating my cake! hmph. joan nearly fell off her chair! ahahahhaa. dun spit the water out!!! lols. anyway, played guitar jus now. fingers pain. ahaha. maybe a nice soak in the toilet bowl will do them good. haha. wad am i saying?!? influence from joan and jolene. hahaha. anyway, gotta go stick my head in a toilet bowl now. (?!?!?!?!?) cya!

rawbean
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back again!

2007-08-17T21:35:00.001-07:00

hello!
haha. its been a long time since i wrote...loads of things have happened since i last posted. the study group meetings...the captain's ball carnival @ church (we got 5th out of 6!!!)... signing up for BYMET....BYMET meeting....the picnic at Botanic Gardens(really had fun!)....school....and loads more.. haha.

anyway, i'll just talk about more recent stuffs like about yesterday and today. well, yesterday i went to make my ic and renee's passport. the ICA building was so darn packed with people it was amazing so many people could get in. the queue was soooo long it went right out of the barrier things to keep you in line all the way to the toilets. and the queue is to get you a ticket for you to wait some more for your turn at the counters. aargh! stand until leg pain. it was about the longest line i ever queued at. LOL.

after tt i went home and slept. lol! so not like me but ya. i did. then i woke up at 9pm. haha. i did homework , went online, ate dinner, read and then slept at 4am. crazy eh? i think its the latest i ever slept. hahahaha. so to compensate for the sleeping time lost, i woke up at 12pm today. wahaha. amongst all tt happened,at least i made 2 achievements - standing in the longest queue i ever stood in and sleeping the latest i ever slept. haha. :]

cya around!
rawbean :]
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long time no write! haha...

2007-07-30T05:18:00.000-07:00

heyy!
i'm back again. haha. miss me? you should. :]
anyway, on friday i went to plaza singapura to join, for the first time, the church study group. danna, lydia, david, aaron, elena, ben, reuben and joan came. we took up three tables. hahaha. :] brandon and titus came for a bit then went off. the place was so freezing cold! nearly froze to my seat la. my hands became so numb i couldnt write properly. lol! you shoulda seen danna's hand writing. hahahaha. really 'wonderful'. ;D i had to go out of the building and defrost with elena. remind me to bring a jacket the next time i go. :P
after the 'study' period, the rest went to watch 'the simpsons', aaron went off and i and lydia went to eat dinner at pasta mania. she ordered an extra spicy spaghetti! lol. i could only eat a few mouthfuls before i gave up. haha.
my curfew was 8 o'clock but guess wad? i came home approximately 5400 seconds late. haha. now i dun think i can go for this week's study group... haix.. :[
aiya. see whether i can bargain with my mom. wish me luck! :]

rawbean:]
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:D

2007-07-22T01:20:00.001-07:00

heyya.
i have another handphone now! :] my mom's old one. haha. so gonna use it for the time being. to be honest i think i like my mom's old one than my one. lols.
anyway, today had fellowship lunch in church. i splattered curry all over myself. had to go to the toilet to try to get the stains off. haha. my parents didnt allow us to play captain's ball. haix. so we went home. :[
hmm.. supposed to be doing my chinese compo now. haha. but.. obviously, i'm rather distracted by this post. i wanta start the 6th book of harry potter (i've finally finished the 5th! :]) but trying not to wander off to the bookshelf and take down the book and have another distraction to deal with. i'm such a good gurl. lol.
later i hafta go to watch my sister dance. haha. shes in ballet. like moi last time. shocked? :]
i guess i'll better get back to my homework [sian...]. cya around!

rawbean :]
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2007-07-20T06:14:00.000-07:00

Test:

If you got an extra day off, how would you spend it?
--> watch a movie with friends or slack at home...

How would you feel if you tripped and dropped all your packages on a busy walkway?
--> malu!!! i'd wish the ground'll swallow me up.

When something goes wrong, are you more likely to:
--> get frustrated. grrr..

Which sport do you most enjoy playing?
--> volleyball, captain's ball, badminton

If you were made world leader indefinitely, how would you feel?
--> ?!? i was??? i'm not doing it!!!!

If it looked like someone might mug you, you'd
--> try to go as far away from him as possible.

Which animal are you most like?
--> a cross breed between a tiger and a chicken...

When you disagree with someone, you:
--> voice out my opinions loud and clear.

How much do you smile during the day?
--> it depends on my mood..

What are you most likely to do when you are angry?
--> fume inside.. pisss....

rawbean
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2007-07-19T23:55:00.000-07:00

Test:

How many outfits do you try on before you decide what to wear?
--> ermm.. once or twice.

Which is the worst experience?
--> saying something stupid in front of my friends.

Do you wear horizontal stripes?
--> ?!? wont tt make me look fat?

Can you find something wrong with even the most beautiful woman?
--> duh.

How do you feel about having your picture taken?
--> take cover!

Do you have designated "fat clothes" and "thin clothes"?
--> ehh?

Have you ever put off clothes shopping until you've lost weight?
--> nope. never.

Liposuction is:
--> the worst way to lose weight.

Do you have specific body parts that you pinch or monitor to measure weight gain or loss?
--> ???

Have you ever cut the tags out of your clothes so you wouldn't have to see the size?
--> for wad? self-denial? ridiculous...

You've found a pair of pants that you love. But, your regular size fits just a little too snug. What do you do?
--> try another size.

Which do you dread most about a dentist's appointment?
--> the equipment

rawbean
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good night!

2007-07-19T07:57:00.000-07:00

hello.
haha. gotta be quick cos i hafta go to sleep soon.. haha. so the most interesting thing that i did today was that i got my hair cut. the back is kinda spiky and sticking up. haha. frm the front i look like i have short hair...i kinda like it. at least i think its better than b4. :]
anyways, tmr i'll be wasting all the precious time i can use for going out at home.. doing nothing... haix.. sad sia. :[ maybe it wont go to waste if, and only if, i am disciplined enough.. which is unlikely. haha. :]
phew. its like 12 now. haha. i think my parents are sleeping.. hmm.. guess i'll stop here then. cya around!
rawbean
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:D

2007-07-18T03:08:00.000-07:00

hello.
was feeling rather frustrated last night.. wont tell you why cos i dun really noe myself. haha. ok. that was crappy. haix.. oh yes, and i flunked my chinese test. no surprise to me. ;]

today i felt like shouting at my chemistry teacher. shes the worst nagger i know. one little question to clarify something and BLAM! "why you never listen during class?","shows tt you never refer to your notes","no wonder you all catch no ball", "dun give me rubbish", "dun ask stupid questions", etc. haix..can die...
i had my amaths test today. when i started i blanked out on logarithms, even though i practised till i was sure how to do them before the test. lol. good thing it came back to me. thank God. :] so yeah. managed to finish the test. :]

i wanta cut my hair. but i think its not long enough.. everytime i tie my hair the hair sticks out at the top. the hair tt should be tied up. so hafta clip.. so troublesome la. haix. plus the clips always get caught when i wanta take them out. so when i take the clips out i kinda take a few strands of my hair out too. ouch! gonna buy new clips [if i rmb which is unlikely]. lol.

my mom got this new work laptop which has a camera attached to it. so cool la. haha. but i still like mine better. :] my parents got it for me for my bday. real early. haha.

anyways, in my previous blog i put the name of the person who gave me jolly shandy as 'lol!'. apparently the person got offended [haha] so i'll make it up to him. its spelt as d-a-v-i-d and pronouced as 'day-vied'. happy? :]

have biology hw 2 do..so i'll catch y'all later! :]

rawbean:]
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170707.

2007-07-17T02:54:00.000-07:00

heyya.
feeling better from yesterday. was smsing lucas when my friend caught me. my prefect friend. wah. super shaken la. lols. but haix.. it's my fault. she's just doing her job. might be confiscated for three months. three! its quite weird cos in the rules section [i went to check it out] in my handbook thingy it stated that it was a month only but danna told me [and i somehow heard frm somewhere] that it was three months. haha. hope the handbook's correct. :]

on 120792, my parents brought my whole family out to celebrate my birthday. :] went ta watch a movie [harry potter and the order of the phoenix]. was quite nice. i would rate it... 3 and a half stars? :] then we went to the soup restaurant and my mom order a ton of different kinds of food. haha. at home, the got my cake out [chocolate], sang me a bday song and all the usual stuffs. haha. that's about all i guess for my bday celebration but it really rocked.
was real touched on that day when like 5-6 peeps wished me a happy birthday at 12 plus in the morning. :] i got my first present that day at school - ferrero rocher [yum!] and a card - from cheryl liew and second, a dog stuffie from elena. :] got many birthday wishes too! was happy, happy, happy! after that day i got other stuffs like 2 bars of hershey chocolate [jeanette pang], a handphone accessory[lucas], a marshmallow penguin[danna], a polar bear stuffie[elsia and claudia], ang pow [gonggong], espirit vouchers[aunty catherine], jolly shandy [lol!], silver slippers [sista-->raeann], and a few more cards. :] thanks to all who gave me gifts and wished me a happy birthday! :D

whoa, lookat the time! still have work to do! ahaha. gtg now, cya!
rawbean
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life sucks...

2007-07-16T00:20:00.000-07:00

depressed, life sucks, handphone got confiscated. there, summarized my day in a sentence.
rawbean
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i <3 GOD! :]

2007-07-01T22:00:00.000-07:00

hello.
this is something that helped me and i hope it will help others too. :]

You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible
You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest
You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you
You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient
You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps
You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things through me
You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able
You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it
You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I Forgive you
You say: "I can't manage"
God says: I will supply all your needs
You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME
You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom
You say: "I feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you

remember, you are never alone as long as GOD exists (which is forever:])

rawbean:]
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hello :]

2007-06-30T08:05:00.000-07:00

haix.. in the past week, my braces came out 2 times! aargh! irritating. first time(i only bit into a HAM and CHEESE sandwich:[) fxi alr then the second(i didnt do anything) gonna fix on youth day. lol.
well.. nothing interesting happened the whole week.. loads of hw given(normal), chemistry teacher nagging at us thru the whole period(normal) and going home and slacking thru the whole afternoon even though i have so much homework(normal)... LOL.
have been sleeping at like 12 to 1am the past few days.. waking up at 6 liddat. OBVIOUSLY cos i pushed all my hw to do at night. wahahaha. so.. i slept at like 12 yesterday and woke up at....(brace yourselves).... ONE PM today! haha. amazing rite? i agree.. :]
anyway, i have morning worship tmr and hafta wake up like EARLY so i gtg sleep now. haha.
adios!
rawbean:]
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first day of school!

2007-06-25T03:32:00.000-07:00

hello. :]
first day of school. hmm... first of all the canteen had some stalls changed. almost all the stalls had a shortage of food to sell la. crappy man. and the really COOL new drinks stall had such SLOW service i nearly died. HAHAHA. exaggerating. lols.
today(during lessons, hee...), me and CZ started pasting pieces of paper which said: 'imma pig', 'kick me' and 'i'm your stalker' (LOL), on jeanette's back. she was super oblivious to wad we were doing la. wahaha. had a real good laugh man. ^_^
btw, i think my blog is super boring so if you have a suggestion to make pls tag k? haha. :]
gtg!
rawbean:]
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yo! again... haha

2007-06-24T06:56:00.001-07:00

hello.
finished with the printing and showering alr. haha.
today for a super early dinner we went to marche @ VIVOcity. it was kinda small and cramp if you ask me but if the food is good, who cares? lol. AND the food was good. :] this dinner was my mom's birthday dinner cos her birthday is TOMORROW! haha. my sista and i making her something TOP SECRET (lols) for her. to give her tmr along with other stuff. :] hope she likes it. haha.
i wonder what my friends' reactions will be of they see i put on braces. haha. :]
cya!
rawbean:]
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yo!

2007-06-24T06:01:00.000-07:00

heyy. haha.
homework i havent finished:
--> a few physics questions
---> chinese compo
----> TYS biology (cant find the darn book. lols!)
-----> literature project (killer)
DIE!
school starts tmr. having mixed feelings about it. some part of me looks forward to it but another part doesnt, cos i know its gonna be stress, stress, stress again. haha. AND i didnt finish my homework. haix...
gtg print out my homework and shower now!
catch ya soon!
rawbean:]
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mann...

2007-06-23T19:59:00.000-07:00

mann.. i missed morning worship. :[ now waiting for my dad to come to pick me up for sunday school. haha. anyway just finished eating my breakfast (lo mai kai). haha. :]
havent finished my homework! aargh! plus school is tmr! sure die one... lols.
i gtg now!
cya!
rawbean:]
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shout it out

2007-06-23T07:18:00.000-07:00

i forgot to state... i've put on BRACES! haha. cool eh? real difficult to eat though. lols. was practically SWALLOWING my food the first 2 days. waha. :] anyway its gettin better now. getting used to them. YAY! lols.
cya!
rawbean:]
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hello

2007-06-23T06:17:00.000-07:00

heyy. haha. my first ever post in my first ever blog! haha. a MILLION thanks to grace for teaching me how to use it. lols.
today i went to grace's house to do a LITERATURE project (two-thirds done. YAY!). she helped me with my blog then we got to work. somewhere in the middle we got high and started laughing like mad at everything. hahaha. we ordered in pizza and a whole bottle of PEPSI of which i did not get to drink , but the pizza was yummy. haha. overall, it was FUN! :]
gtg do my homework now! (sian...) cya!
rawbean:]
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